{"product_id":"shadow-harvest-emily-kimelman-copy","title":"Savage Grace - Emily Kimelman","description":"\u003ch3 class=\"Text Text__title3 Text__italic Text__regular Text__subdued\" aria-label=\"Book 5 in the Sydney Rye Mysteries series\"\u003e\u003ca href=\"https:\/\/www.goodreads.com\/series\/93347-sydney-rye-mysteries\" aria-label=\"Book 5 in the Sydney Rye Mysteries series\"\u003eSydney Rye Mysteries\u003cspan\u003e \u003c\/span\u003e#12\u003c\/a\u003e\u003c\/h3\u003e\n\u003cp\u003e\u003cmeta charset=\"UTF-8\"\u003e\u003cmeta charset=\"UTF-8\"\u003e\u003cspan\u003eI’m pregnant.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eGripping the test in my hand, I can’t stop staring at the blue cross in the window.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eTears roll, hot and slow, down my cheeks. I huddle in a low ball, emotion bowing me. My dog, Blue, whines and presses against my side, his warm tongue laving my cheek, his musky scent enveloping me. A familiar comfort.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eWill my child love Blue as I do?\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eMy phone vibrates on the bathroom counter, and I hiccup a sob. Squeezing my eyes shut, pressing more tears free, I hold my breath. Blood rushes in my ears, and my heart throbs in my chest…a tidal wave is washing me away. I can’t do this.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eThe soft ping of a voicemail brings my eyes open. I’m staring at the cross again.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eBlue shifts closer, leaning his warm weight against me. As tall as a Great Dane, with the elegant snout of a collie, the markings of a wolf, and mismatched eyes—one blue the other brown—Blue means the world to me.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eMy heart will have to make room for more.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eFear slices through me, adrenaline flooding my veins and bringing another soft whine from Blue. Standing quickly, the adrenaline demanding action, I glance at my phone.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eRobert Maxim.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eHe can’t know. My eyes trace to the trash can of the hotel bathroom. Wrap up the test and put it in there.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eBut my hand won’t follow the advice. My fingers grip tighter, refusing to release the small wand of plastic. The proof. The truth.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eGrabbing my phone off the counter, I step back into the hotel room. Blue stays close to my hip, his nose tapping my waist once, a gentle reminder he is there.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eI shove the plastic wand into my bag, pushing it into a zipper interior pocket and closing it up. Locking it away.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eJust throw it out.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eI can’t.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eMy hand strays to my stomach, and Blue’s nose swipes against my fingers. Vision blurred with tears, I stand in the center of the hotel room, my mind reeling. Lightning sizzles across my vision, and thunder ricochets inside my mind.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eI’m not cut out for motherhood.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eI know I’ll survive. It’s everyone I love who dies.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eThat changes now.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eP.S. The dog does not die.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003e**Beware: If you can’t handle a few f-bombs, you can’t handle this series.**\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003e\u003cstrong\u003eUsed Book\u003c\/strong\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp data-testid=\"pagesFormat\"\u003e256 pages, Paperback\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp data-testid=\"publicationInfo\"\u003eFirst published September 26, 2019\u003c\/p\u003e","brand":"Brewberry Books","offers":[{"title":"Default Title","offer_id":42755949756510,"sku":null,"price":8.0,"currency_code":"CAD","in_stock":true}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0631\/0585\/9678\/files\/242089436.jpg?v=1778538691","url":"https:\/\/www.brewberrybooks.ca\/products\/shadow-harvest-emily-kimelman-copy","provider":"Brewberry Books","version":"1.0","type":"link"}