{"product_id":"unmasked-my-life-solving-americas-cold-cases-paul-holes-and-robin-gaby-fisher","title":"Unmasked: My Life Solving America's Cold Cases - Paul Holes and Robin Gaby Fisher","description":"\u003cp\u003e\u003cmeta charset=\"utf-8\"\u003e\u003cb\u003eFrom the detective who found The Golden State Killer, a memoir of investigating America’s toughest cold cases and the rewards--and toll--of a life solving crime.\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eI order another bourbon, neat. This is the drink that will flip the switch. I don’t even know how I got here, to this place, to this point. Something is happening to me lately. I’m drinking too much. My sheets are soaking wet when I wake up from nightmares of decaying corpses. I order another drink and swig it, trying to forget about the latest case I can’t shake.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eCrime-solving for me is more complex than the challenge of the hunt, or the process of piecing together a scientific puzzle. The thought of good people suffering drives me, for better or worse, to the point of obsession.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003ePeople always ask how I am able to detach from the horrors of my work. Part of it is an innate capacity to compartmentalize; the rest is experience and exposure, and I’ve had plenty of both. But I had always taken pride in the fact that I can keep my feelings locked up to get the job done. It’s only been recently that it feels like all that suppressed darkness is beginning to seep out.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eWhen I look back at my long career, there is a lot I am proud of. I have caught some of the most notorious killers of the twenty-first century and brought justice and closure for their victims and families. I want to tell you about a lifetime solving these cold cases, from Laci Peterson to Jaycee Dugard to the Pittsburg homicides to, yes, my twenty-year-long hunt for the Golden State Killer.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eBut a deeper question eats at me as I ask myself, at what cost? I have sacrificed relationships, joy—even fatherhood—because the pursuit of evil always came first. Did I make the right choice? It’s something I grapple with every day. Yet as I stand in the spot where a young girl took her last breath, as I look into the eyes of her family, I know that, for me, there has never been a choice. “I don’t know if I can solve your case,” I whisper. “But I promise I will do my best.”\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eIt is a promise I know I can keep.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003e\u003cstrong\u003eused book\u003c\/strong\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp data-testid=\"pagesFormat\"\u003e288 pages, paperback\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp data-testid=\"publicationInfo\"\u003eFirst published April 26, 2022\u003c\/p\u003e","brand":"Brewberry Books","offers":[{"title":"Default Title","offer_id":42659712204894,"sku":null,"price":10.0,"currency_code":"CAD","in_stock":true}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0631\/0585\/9678\/files\/unmasked.jpg?v=1776462942","url":"https:\/\/www.brewberrybooks.ca\/products\/unmasked-my-life-solving-americas-cold-cases-paul-holes-and-robin-gaby-fisher","provider":"Brewberry Books","version":"1.0","type":"link"}